Nanowrimo Day 4
Word count: 2,096
Word total: 8,305
Words remaining: 41,695
I can’t believe this is only the fourth day. Things are not looking good. This started as another painful day. We’ll see where I go with it. I’m not feeling very good about the writing. I know that what I’m writing is not important. I just can’t seem to get past it today. Depression struck as I stared at the screen. I’m not sure where this will take me, if anywhere. I’ll keep pushing words and hope for the best. I guess I have to think of hope and springs and eternity. I’ve spent most of my time flipping between Word and the Internet, writing a paragraph every thirty minutes or so. This is getting ridiculous.
Where the last few years, I ran out of things to say or said things badly, I at least had a plan of what to say. Unlike this year, where I’m afraid to reread what I’ve written because I know it’ll not make sense. I need a break. I need a few hours of deep thought to see where to take this. I need to stop consternating and get writing. The one good thing about this year’s writing is that I’m the only one tortured by the words. Sure, these annoying consternations, the only evidence that I’ve written anything, are slightly annoying. But, and trust me on this, they are not nearly as annoying as the two-thousand words of crap written above this fold.
I managed to get the needed words tonight. I took a few steps at the end to try to salvage at least this part of the story. I won’t know if I’m successful until tomorrow. Until then.