sewcrates.com - "Suffering" tagged posts

I don't want to know who's there

Seattle, WA | 2007.01.26 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Nothing worse than a lonely Sunday

Seattle, WA | 2007.02.01 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

It doesn't matter how hard I pull

Seattle, WA | 2007.03.15 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Weight

I came all this way & I won't go in

Seattle, WA | 2007.04.19 | Cast of Horribles | House, Suffering

They're expecting me to say something

Seattle, WA | 2007.05.15 | Cast of Horribles | Spotlight, Stage, Suffering

One cause of my migraines/headaches is hunger. If I don't eat a scheduled meal, there is a high chance that I will pay for it with some sort of headache. Even eating before I have the headache but after the scheduled time doesn't help. Actually, I think it's eating after I was hungry that triggers the headache. It's a vicious circle.

I've always wished for a pill that I could take regularly in lieu of food. Now, don't get me wrong, I like food. It's just that food tends to cause drastic mood swings in me. It's not consistent, and I can't predict when and how it will happen, but once it does, I feel terrible: either grouchy and miserable, or headachey and hiding under the covers. Either way, it's awful for me and those around me.

Seattle, WA | 2007.06.10 | Cast of Horribles | Headache, Hunger, Suffering

You're looking strong today

That's Jason to the left. He was my trainer for the past couple of years. He's a big guy. Very big. I'm a small guy, much smaller now that I stopped seeing Jason and starting riding my bicycle home from work three times a week.

Seattle, WA | 2007.06.19 | Cast of Horribles | Diary, Gym, Suffering

Complaints reaching dangerous levels

My mother called me after this was posted. It went up after our wedding, and my mother was very concerned about the newlyweds. I assured her that I drew this much earlier in the year, and it had nothing to do with our relationship. (This was posted before my fancy new website, with Create and Post dates, and squiggly lines on the bottom.)

Julie and I used to jog in Seward Park. This was in our starry-eyed living-in-sin stage. We would jog around the park, and I would listen to Julie complain: pain in her side, trouble breathing, heart rate too fast, unbearably itchy legs (I can't make this up!). After a while, I began keeping a complaint meter. The more she complained, the higher the levels. From the looks of the smoke coming from our sneakers, you can imagine the level of complaints.

Seattle, WA | 2007.07.08 | Cast of Horribles | Diary, Jogging, Julie, Suffering

It's always worse than they say

I never had to write stuff on the chalkboard as punishment during school. Then again, the thought of detention scared the shit out of me. I remember intensive crying in elementary school when I was given detention for throwing snowballs while working as a bus monitor (yes, I was a geeky kiss-up in my scholastic years). There were two injustices: first, I don't think any of us threw snowballs that morning; and second, they gave us the option of a week of detention or a month of not being bus monitors. I chose detention for us since it was shorter. Looking back, I should definitely have taken vacation over detention. I can't believe I volunteered to work for free. What was I thinking?

For the record, injustice tastes worse than detention.

Seattle, WA | 2007.07.13 | Cast of Horribles | Blackboard, Meetings, School, Suffering

Summer hits like a bag of bolts

This was drawn before summer, during a spring heatwave. Very few houses have air conditioning in Seattle. We happen to live in one that does. Of course, everything is relative. You get used to anything after awhile. That's why I keep trying to get Julie to join me as a Mountain Man (and Mountain Doctor!) in Alaska. You know, to test my theory.

Seattle, WA | 2007.07.15 | Cast of Horribles | Air Conditioner, Diary, Suffering, Weather

I'm pulled in so many directions

I really like the bungee cord that's threaded through his 2D eyeballs. I'm not sure what I was thinking when I drew it, but I can almost feel my eyeballs being stretched when I look at it. The vice was for added pain.

Seattle, WA | 2007.07.16 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Vice

I can't find her

I played with shadows, smoke, and light on this one. It didn't end up very interesting but there you have it.

I just bicycled through the rain in Seattle. There was about fifteen minutes of my bike commute home, where I was sure the rain somehow turned to hail. As I coasted down a hill, the drops stung my face like tiny dull needles. Luckily, for the second half of my ride, it cleared up and the sun came out and washed away all the rain. I didn't see any spiders, though.

Sometimes you aim for the sweet spot between the rain showers, and end up riding right through a nasty one.

Seattle, WA | 2007.07.19 | Cast of Horribles | Julie, Shadows, Suffering

How do I remove a lifetime of negativity?

Ah, another goody. As part of NEQID (my never-ending quest to improve David), I sometimes confront the ugly fact that I am a negative person. Now, before you jump in and tell me how I'm not so negative, that there's an entire world of cynics in line before me, people who think the world will end and all humans are generally evil and despicable beings, let me stop you there. I appreciate your efforts, but I know I'm a negative person. I don't want to be, but I am.

This doodle reflects that. Every time I try to clean off my negativity, there's a lot of shit to work through. It turns out that today I'm again turning the leaf, making this post rather timely. It's clear that when I drew this, I also thought I would turn over the leaf. I guess I have lots of leaves to work through.

Seattle, WA | 2007.08.06 | Cast of Horribles | NEQID, Suffering

Reality changes when I haven't slept

I was exhausted when I drew this. Jet lag after the wedding found me, and I drew bubbles. Go figure.

Seattle, WA | 2007.08.21 | Cast of Horribles | Bubbles, Suffering, Travel

Don't stifle me

The design and development of the new Horribles website was slowing my doodling. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get back into it. After all that work, it would have been very dissappointing not to draw new doodles. This follows my underlying fear that if I think too much about my doodles, I won't be able to create them anymore. Both unfounded, right?

Before you ask, I don't know what those white things are. At first I thought of cotton balls or pillows, but in the end, I left them as squiggly whitish gray things with incorrect shadowing. The little guy is supposed to be smothered by them. I originally drew the pillow-things over everything, but when I deleted a few to make room for the words, I realized the blue space was comforting. I deleted more pillows to balance out the holes and remove that feeling of being trapped.

Seattle, WA | 2007.09.06 | Cast of Horribles | Pillows, Suffering

There's not much energy left

Another headache, another lethargic and wasted day, followed by an inspired doodle.

This doodle came out surprisingly well. I've had a lot of practice with the glass effect, and I think I worked out most of its kinks.

This was one of the first doodles where I used a simple geometric shape as the background. I saw this done in a number of other comics, and decided to give it a try. It does work in certain circumstances, and it make the doodling process much faster.

Seattle, WA | 2007.09.16 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Suffering

Is it still rejection if you weren't sure you wanted to succeed?

This one deserves a longer explanation than I'm willing to write.

Tonight is the first night of Succot. I won't post tomorrow, so you'll have to live with this doodle for the weekend.

Seattle, WA | 2007.09.26 | Cast of Horribles | Chalkboard, Rejection, Suffering

My three-thousand dollar mirror

It's true, my computer is kaput. It has slowed down my doodling as I'm forced to use my work Tablet PC to create the Horribles.

After many hardware failures, the power supply finally blew, and took the power strip with it. The blow took out the house circuit as well. Using my incredible deductive powers, I determined that the power outage was caused by either a faulty power supply in the computer (unlikely) or a faulty powerstrip (much more likely, as it was a very old strip).

I'm not sure of my next steps. I thought about buying a new computer, but the more I looked insides of computer, the more it seemed a huge waste of money not to reuse them. I'll begin replacing the components piece by piece, hopefully stopping at the new power supply, and maybe a new case and fans (the Alienware case, while shiny, is huge and its fans make too much noise).

Seattle, WA | 2007.10.01 | Cast of Horribles | Computer, Suffering

I feel smaller every day

A bit tired today. It's been a long week. I had a few newer doodles that I should have posted before this one, but they all required (or merited) an explanation. This one only needed a few consternated sentences.

Seattle, WA | 2007.10.03 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I'm too tired to care

I've not had much energy to write these past few nights. I have given the Marathon a bit more thought. If only my thoughts translated directly to words, I'll be okay. It doesn't, for the record.

This is how I feel today. I must feel like this often because I drew this last month. The weather was nice today. But we've had our share of rain this winter. I shouldn't complain, as the Californians have it much worse with the fires. I can't believe how close they are to populated areas. There will be many unhappy insurance shareholders.

Seattle, WA | 2007.10.22 | Cast of Horribles | Rain, Suffering, Umbrella, Weather

They know my secret

Seattle, WA | 2007.10.23 | Cast of Horribles | Failure, Suffering

There are some things I don't want to know

Julie complained when she saw this horrible. She said my horribles did not bleed red blood. Looking back through my crop of Horribles, I found two bloody doodles (that's clearly not enough, something I plan to rectify in the near future), (now) conveniently tagged with Blood. In the first one, we see that the blood is indeed flesh (or David-Horrible) colored. In the second one, we see the more traditional red blood (although it's arguable whether that is Horrible blood or dragon blood). What does this all mean? Absolutely nothing, or in other words, I had too much time to write this.

I received my early birthday present from the Julies on Tuesday. In my About section (which I won't correct until after NAIS, the New And Improved Sewcrates.com), I lament about not having a Cintiq monitor/tablet to bring my doodling to the next level. Well, the Julies broke down and spent too much moneys on the David. I am now the proud owner of a brand new Cintiq 20WSX (disregard the price--I'm worth it!). I created my first three doodles on it over the last two days. I'm still setting up the very useful buttons, but already my detail work has greatly improved. We just finished watching an anime, and I'm very much looking forward to creating my anime Horrible this week.

I'm now expecting my audience to grow two fold. With my newly acquired skill (of which nobody will see for probably another month as I work through my queue), I'll, well, do something. Maybe draw doodles.

I came across this very apt comic at one of my daily Video Game stops. I immediately sent it to the Julies. It is very apt: Julie and I pick the same classes when we play RPGs: Julie is the warrior, and I'm the wizard. Just look through my version of events. (On second thought, perhaps you shouldn't. Tim Buckley, the artist/writer of Ctrl+Alt+Del, is what they call an "artist." I'm what's known as a "hack.")

I apologize for the excessive linking today. I don't know what came over me.

Seattle, WA | 2007.12.20 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Suffering

I'm spiraling downwards

Ah, the "suffering" tagged doodle I planned to post on the first of the year before I had second thoughts. I realized it was bad to start the year on a sour note. There are many suffering Horribles, almost too many. I draw these when I feel like sitting in a dark corner and avoiding everyone. Or it could be I felt like drawing a spiral at the time. It's always hard to say.

We're almost finished organizing the second set of photographs from the wedding. As soon as Julie double checks the ordering, I'll post them.

Seattle, WA | 2008.01.03 | Cast of Horribles | Space, Stars, Suffering

Too tired

The weekend draws to a close. We had wonderful weather today: sunny and almost warm. We tried a new restaurant last night, and will head to our normal haunt tonight for dinner. We took Ziggy to an Iggy meetup, and Julie tried out her new camera. The foster parents of Button, our possible second dog, stopped by today with Button for a home visit. Ziggy played well with Button--although she was a bit overwhelmed by his energy. We'll take over fostering her when we return from Hawaii in two weeks.

Other than that we didn't do much. I pretended to write Saturday morning, and spent too much time dreaming of video games (the ones I create, not the ones I play). I always get riled up and write pages of documentation and specifications, before realizing that my dream is just that. It's a lot of specialized work to write a game, and I'm a lazy man. I'll feel inspiration for a few hours, and then find myself staring at old Diablo screenshots and realizing that it took thirty 3D artists six months to draw and animate the little people and monsters that populate that world. How many hours do I have?

Perhaps it's good to dream. It gives me something to look forward to thinking about, even if I know I'll never do much more than think or install the odd compiler or gaming framework. Either way it gave me something to type tonight.

Seattle, WA | 2008.01.13 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Sometimes you lose what you're going to say

I didn't appreciate what would happen to the Horribles when I went on vacation (I write this as if anyone truly cared. Oops, sorry. I slipped into consternation mode for a moment). I planned to doodle and post in Hawaii, figuring we'd have time at the end of the day to relax and fiddle around. It didn't work out that way. The little time I had I used to write my short journal entries and choose photos. The rest of the time we were out exploring or eating (we did a lot of eating--it's going to take me days of hunger pains before my stomach shrinks to its normal size) or collapsing in bed at the end of the night. We didn't even turn on the television the entire week. This is unheard of in our household.

Next time, I'll post an On Hiatus doodle for my time away. For now, I'll get back into it. Since Button arrived yesterday, I plan to add her to the Horribles tonight. For now I'll continue going through the queue.

It's good to be back.

Seattle, WA | 2008.01.29 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I'm losing it

This suffering doodle was apt for yesterday when my normal Saturday blues returned. I didn't suffer while away in Kauai, but as usual, I woke up with a storming headache, which got worse throughout the day. I know I promised to keep complaining to a minimum, but yesterday was miserable, and I feel like the universe owes me a do-over Saturday.

We saw a few houses today. We're looking to upgrade from the Castle. While we love the house and the view, having two dogs without a proper yard is a bit more complicated than we imagined. And since Julie is working more on the east side, it's starting to make sense to improve both of our commutes. We're in no rush, and we might not find something for quite a while, but we are spending some of our Sundays at least looking.

Button and Ziggy are working out well. They've had a few stomach issues lately. My friend Shannon finally identified the cause: the two bacteria floras living in each dogs' stomach are intermixing as they spend more time together and mix saliva and share food. As it mixes, it causes stomach issues until arriving at a steady state. In Shannon's experience, this takes a few weeks. We were afraid they might have a stomach virus. His explanation sounds better. We will probably have to delay Button's spaying until the stomach issues pass. We're still happy (if a bit overwhelmed) to have two dogs.

Seattle, WA | 2008.02.03 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Rope, Suffering, Upside down

There's not much in there

I drew this on the run up to Nanowrimo 2007. I spent much of that time fretting about not having ideas. It turned out, after all was said and written, I had good reason to fret. Writing 50,000 words without any ideas or planning is not a good way to create something worthwhile.

But it did leave me with a leaky faucet doodle. So I have that.

Seattle, WA | 2008.02.14 | Cast of Horribles | Faucet, Marathon, Suffering

They'll never find me in here

I haven't doodled since last week. I'm in a bit of a creative rut. I have a few ideas for my next doodles, but I haven't found the patience to sit down and draw. Same with writing. I went to the coffeeshop early on Saturday morning, thinking I would write lots of words. The caffeine failed, and I ended up staring into space. I'm not sure if this is a localized rut or something larger.

But the posting continues and here's todays brief thought.

Seattle, WA | 2008.02.19 | Cast of Horribles | Closet, Suffering, Suffering

They'll never find me in here

But the posting continues and here's todays brief thought.

Seattle, WA | 2008.02.19 | Cast of Horribles | Closet, Suffering, Suffering

The silence is deafening

Things have been chugging along around these parts. We're working hard to get the Castle in order for selling, lining up mortgages, scheduling inspections, looking at furniture, trying to decide wall colors. It's been very busy. Combine that with a computer that has started crashing again, and I haven't doodled much lately. I'm working through my large backlog of Horribles, and I will hopefully start doodling again soon. For now, enjoy the leftovers.

Seattle, WA | 2008.03.04 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

It's always good to peek outside the pit

Another busy weekend. We went to Whidbey Island yesterday. The rain stayed away but it was overcast most of the day. A bit cold in the evening, but a nice way to spend a Saturday.

Today we started moving some stuff to Julie's parents' house for storage. We want the Castle to be clutter free when it's time to show it.

The change in daylight savings messed up my schedule. I'm not sure if I'm overtired or undertired. Something is definitely amiss.

Seattle, WA | 2008.03.09 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Bored to tears

It feels like a long time since I last posted a Horrible. I have been busily doodling away. I now have a nice stockpile in my back pocket, which decreases my anxiety and leaves me a much happier person.

I'm not sure what inspired this particular Horrible, but I'm sure it was some sort of presentations where somebody was talking at me for an inexplicably long time. I've said this before, but I'll say it again: when I'm bored, I really do cry. Julie has witnessed this behavior. It is not a good sad cry, but an uncontrollable leakage of water from my eyes. It leaves none of the redness or soreness that remains after a real cry.

The week has taken a turn for the worse, as I woke up to a torrential rainstorm, which made my morning dog routine more difficult. I planned to post a bit of writing over the past few days, but haven’t gotten around to it. Don’t worry, thinking of the stuff I’ve written, you’re not missing much. It’s the usual inane musings about weather, dearth of writing, and aspirations to be a bigger, better David ala NEQID.

Chuck e-mailed me to claim that he was busily thinking of planning to work on my Pong serve. I don’t remember the story topic, but knowing my interests, I’m sure it’s excruciatingly painful.

Seattle, WA | 2008.06.03 | Cast of Horribles | Bored, Crying, Suffering

If only I could fit

This doodle was sitting on my harddrive for a long time. Julie helped put a name to it. It's another in a long line of suffering-for-no-reason Horribles.

Julie's sister Janie arrived with her dog Jimmy yesterday. We now have three people and three dogs in (or around) the Villa.

I would say more, but my head is clogged from a quick day trip to Mountain View yesterday.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.07.24 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I got nothing

It's not any better today.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.07.29 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Trees

I keep seeing them looking at me

Instead of doodling, I've been bitten but the bug again. I'm sure I'll get over it, but until I do, I'm pounding out code.

Our long weekend was wonderful. We saw many people, drove all over Southern California, and even visited Julie's old Newport Beach haunts. The experience makes me question my entire anti-social approach to life. Maybe visiting with people is better than sitting around the Villa. Just maybe.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.08.12 | Cast of Horribles | Anxiety, Suffering

They know all about me

I accepted the job I hinted at earlier. I'm still with my corporate overlords, but now I'm working on video games. Yes, VIDEO GAMES. Well, I will be in a few weeks, once I finish the transition. While I'm not (yet) designing games, it's great to get into the industry. I borrowed four books on the history of video games from the library. I can't believe they pay me to learn this stuff.

The weather here has been strange. It's gone from cold and rainy to too hot and back again. We're now in the in-between part. There are patches of blue sky, and I have hopes it'll clear up before it's time to bicycle home. I brought my rain jacket just in case.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.08.21 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Nobody ever sees me

It's the Jewish New Years and I shouldn't be posting today, but I'm not a very good Jew this year. We're in Brooklyn, after a fun few days visiting with Jennifer and Steven. We didn't take any photographs, so you'll have to take our word for it. The rain and humidity didn't take much away from our time.

I should draw more of these t-shirt-style doodles. I always seem to like them. We're heading back to Seattle tomorrow to rescue the iggies and get back to work.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.09.30 | Cast of Horribles | Shirt, Suffering

Some mornings barely crawl along

I'm posting a bit early since tomorrow (technically, tonight, or very soon) is Yom Kippur. For those fasting, have an easy fast--since most of my family is on the east coast, they likely won't read this until after it is over. Oh well. It's the thought that counts, I guess.

I've been feeling extra tired recently, so, once again, this is a timely doodle. I'm not sure if it's the Warhammer Online or just not enough (or possibly too much) sleep. My new job is still keeping me busy, and coffee is getting me through the tougher mornings. There is way too much punctuation in this post. Damn punctuations.

Oh, I forgot to mention I once again signed up for the Marathon the other day. I think this is my fourth year. I keep forgetting why I do this to myself.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.10.08 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Morning, Suffering

Hunger turns me into a monster

Ah, there's a monster with a small belly full of green liquid. This will be short. My mind has been on other things lately. Not that they're good for me, but they do keep me thinking and doing and worrying.

The balancing line between hungry monster, and satiated David is very thin. It's hard for me to know when I've crossed it. Julie has gotten good at pointing it out, and stuffing me with snacks to normalize my moods.

I just counted, and with my lax Horrible posting schedule, I have plenty of doodles to post during the Marathon. Now, if only I had plenty of words to write, this November would look less scary.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.10.14 | Cast of Horribles | Hunger, Monsters, Suffering

If you don't think about it, it won't be bad

I'm trying not to think about it. It's almost Friday. This has been a long week.

Mercer Island, WA | 2008.10.16 | Cast of Horribles | Milk, Suffering

It used to mean something

Again I have no idea what I was thinking when I drew this. I know I stole the idea of the multiple layers of clouds from ExplodingDog. He did it much better in his drawing--it actually looked like smoke instead of colored layers (he used transparency that didn't work well with my doodle).

We've just about returned to our daily routine after all our travels. It's been a long time coming.

I have a bunch of doodles in the queue, and I may start popping them more frequently. Sunday may be the new Tuesday (or something like that). We'll see how the rest of the my week goes.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.01.06 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

There is light at the end of every tunnel

This is my first Sunday posting in a long time. We just returned from a work holiday party in January. They voted last year and decided to have the party in January to avoid the December rush. It was a nice party and I'm a bit tipsy. Thankfully, designated driver Doolies drove home.

Update: At Chuck's request, I created an alternative version of this doodle where there is no light from the front of the tunnel.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.01.11 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Sometimes you don't see it coming

This is the start of my pain doodles. When I drew this, I didn't know the next two doodles would be about pain. Or maybe I did know, deep down at places I don't talk about at cocktail parties (thanks Jack!).

Work is getting busier and busier. I'm forgetting if this is good or not.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.01.15 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Wrecking ball

How do I not measure my worth by others?

There's sun out there. Cold, frosty sun, but sun! Enjoy the second in my line of Sunday Horribles. If this keeps up, I might have to change the About Page that nobody reads.

The doodle is about some disappointing news I received back in August. It wasn't terrible but it destroyed me emotionally. I don't know why I allow others to have such a huge effect on me. It's one of those character flaws I'm working on through NEQID (the Never Ending Quest to Improve David).

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.01.18 | Cast of Horribles | Fail, Suffering

It shouldn't be this way

This is an ode to the dark and hairy pit of depression. I took a dip in it last week. Luckily it passed and except for a small headache, today is a good day.

I've been on a tear lately with new Horribles. The size of my queue has become almost unbearable. I need to share my fruit with the peeps.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.02.03 | Cast of Horribles | Dark, Depression, Suffering

I feel disconnected from everything

And the trend continues: doodling during my dark, hairy pits of dooooom (5 o's should do it).

The sun continues to shine in Seattle. I have no idea what's happening, but since the huge snow dumps there has been little in the way of rain. Now even clouds seem to be a thing of past winters.

And, yes, this is a Wednesday posting. I did the math yesterday, and if I continue on my three-post per week schedule, it'll take 31 weeks to empty my queue. That is unacceptable as I have some gems I want to share. Enjoy!

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.02.04 | Cast of Horribles | Disconnected, Fort, Suffering

And then something happened

I thought I'd break up my parade of robots.

I'm not sure what happened with my writing. It's not happening any more. I have many Sundays worth of Bucks of Stars writing that I haven't bothered to post. Don't worry, you're not missing much: I write a few paragraphs before falling into a deep consternated funk.

"And then something happened" is exceedingly hard for me. I can't do plot. I can't make things happen. My characters sit around and think without acting. I've tried writing exercises and stealing other people's stories, and I always hit a snag where I can't pull free. That's enough. I considered deleting this, but I'll leave it to prove that I do think about writing. I just don't do much of it.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.02.12 | Cast of Horribles | Plot, Suffering, Writing

So this is what it feels like to work again

The threatened rain finished last night, and today was mostly sunny and somewhat warm.

I doodled this gem when I switched jobs at work. The first few weeks of the new job was quite stressful as everything was new and scary. I've since found my groove and while at times stressful, it's no longer the one ton weight depicted in the Horrible.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.02.22 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Sweat, Weight, Work

"I think I found the problem"

I woke up a bit later than usual. Yesterday was busy, and the hammer banging on my brains didn't help things. The headache passed in the evening to be replaced by queasiness from a questionable Tapas place. I decided not to cook last night because of the headache and the late night at work. Wow, that's too many complaints for a beautiful Saturday morning. I'll stop now.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.02.28 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Hammer, Headache, Robot, Suffering

I forgot what I was going to say

This happens too often. Luckily I was able to remember when it happened and jot it down in colorful black and white.

My mother is visiting on Thursday. We have a busy weekend planned. I can't believe it's Wednesday already. Such a fast week.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.04 | Cast of Horribles | Black and White, Suffering

It's never enough

My alarm keeps going off a half hour before I set it. I can't figure it out. Julie had a good idea: set the alarm 30 minutes later. I haven't tried it yet but it sounds like a good idea. I would get rid of it except it has a very soothing nature sound alarm. It beats the jarring ringing.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.12 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Water

I need a release at times

They're trying to force me to bet money on a March Madness bracket. I'm trying to resist. I know nothing about college basketball (except go 'cuse! Okay, I can't even pretend enthusiasm), and I hate betting when the odds are against me. I like a strong 50.1% or greater. It's the peer pressure. It's too strong. It's like grade school again: they dangle friendship in exchange for filling out a form and paying $10. Wait, that never happened in grade school. The friendship thing, that is.

Enough babbling. Enjoy today's doodle. It's one in a long line of bloody doodles.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.18 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Suffering

It's never as bad as it looks

My queue is shrinking. I haven't doodled in a few days.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.19 | Cast of Horribles | Rain, Suffering, Weather

I need something more blended

Last year, we bought prints from a small Seattle art gallery. They were good, much better than I will ever produce. It was a style I yearn for: blended coloring.

Also, notice the bottom of Julie's head. It's concave insead of convex (go, go third grade math!). I'm trying a new style for her Horrible.

It's cloudy outside, as thick as pea soup (I've never found the soup that thick). I'm hoping behind all this fog is a dog-park-worthy day.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.21 | Cast of Horribles | Art, Suffering

There are only five possibilities

Taking care of a 3-month old isn't too hard. When they cry, there's a limited number of reasons:

Crying because her diaper is wet (commence changing)
Crying because she's hungry (commence feeding)
Crying because she's tired and she doesn't know how to put herself to sleep (commence rocking)
Crying because she wants stimulation (commence carrying baby until arms fall off)
Crying just because it's 3am (commence hiding under covers and hoping it stops)

Julie reminded me of the one I missed: Crying because she needs to burp (commence burping)

Julie pointed out that baby's usually don't tear when they cry. I never realized it but it's true at 3-months old. She went on (in her doctorly tone) to explain: After one month, the baby's tear glands are mature enough to have tears. Tears are usually a sign that they are very frustrated. If they are crying to communicate, then they won't have tears every time. Not tearing may also be the result of dehydration (not a problem with Angelina because she's a very good bottle drinker).

Update: This is my most edited entry. I posted three versions of the Horrible before I was satisfied, and edited the text four times. No more edits (I'm looking at you, the Julies!).

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.03.31 | Cast of Horribles | Angelina, Baby, Crying, Suffering

It's not kid stuff

The weekend has finally arrived after a very late Friday night. The sun in shining and the temperature promises to climb into the sixties and many seventies today. I can't wait.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.04.18 | Cast of Horribles | Scribbles, Suffering

This is really about nothing

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.04.24 | Cast of Horribles | Nothing, Suffering

Stop putting me in your box

I'm back! Did you miss me? I'm still missing some sleep. Let me know if you find it.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.04.29 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

It wasn't me

Another beautiful but exhausting day in Seattle.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.05.01 | Cast of Horribles | Stickup, Suffering

It's all collapsing in on itself

It's the world! And its squishing me!

Another beautiful Monday morning. The sun is taking a bit of a vacation this week to prepare for next weekend. I don't mind its strategy.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.05.11 | Cast of Horribles | Earth, Suffering

He said I was ordinary

As always, the smallest things set me off. I don't remember what it was back when I drew this, but I'm sure it was small.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.05.13 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Water

I can't believe I was wrong

So I make quick judgments about people that don't always turn out to be true. Sue me!

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.05.19 | Cast of Horribles | Prejudice, Suffering, Water

There must be an easier way

And it involves drawing better Horribles. I'm feeling better today (stop worrying, Mom--I don't have the swine). Still not 100% but heading in that direction.

I'm finishing up Flatland: A Romance of Many Dimensions. I can't believe it's taken me this long to find this little gem. It helps that it's $0.80 on the Kindle. Excuse me while I try to ascend to the fourth dimension, yet again.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.05.27 | Cast of Horribles | Heights, Mountain, Suffering

I'm drowning in it

It's been a while since I was stuck in the muck of depression. In these sunny times, I forget what it feels like. That's a good thing.

We're off to Victoria, B.C. this weekend to celebrate the Julies birthday. We're even taking a boat.

It's not a cruise (thankfully) but a boat to get us from point A to point B. Cruises scare me. Too many people in too small of a space with too much fake happiness. It's the introvert in me: cruises are designed for happy-go-lucky extroverts--people who consider meeting new people in strange environments an enjoyable and energy-providing experience. I hate those people.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.06.04 | Cast of Horribles | Depression, Muck, Rain, Suffering

I feel out of sorts today

After too much caffeine yesterday and waking up at 2am, it's been a strange and stretched morning. It might rain here. That would be nice.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.06.17 | Cast of Horribles | Broken, Suffering

Chasing sleep

This was drawn at 3:30am on a sleepless night back in February. Luckily, that's a rare occurrence.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.06.30 | Cast of Horribles | Sleep, Suffering

I'm always waiting for something to happen

Particularly on the day after a long weekend.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.06 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I got nothing

My first repeated title. Except for the strange leaning, I like this one better.

Don't you hate it when you rush to work for an early morning meeting, arriving just in the nick of time, only to realize that the meeting is tomorrow morning? Yeah, me too. Me too.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.07 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

The next best thing to drinking it

I'm blue again. I think it's the weather. Cool clouds rolled in a few days ago and haven't left. They should clear up by the end of the week. Then I'll hopefully be pink again.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.08 | Cast of Horribles | Coffee, Suffering

Am I really that ugly?

Yes, yes I am. I really have to stop answering my own doodles. People will start thinking I'm the crazy.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.09 | Cast of Horribles | Mirror, Suffering

I thought I'd stick

It's another Monday morning. I don't have anything else to report.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.13 | Cast of Horribles | Blood, Suffering, Wall

Short tiny steps

I'm better today. The sun and massive amounts of sleep did their trick. Now, if the weather would just stay still, life would be easier.

Just as a warning: We leave for NYC on Friday. This means tomorrow is the last Horrible until the following Thursday. How will I ever survive?

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.15 | Cast of Horribles | Colors, Suffering

Yesterday's sleep is still all over me

This could not be more true. We're still not recovered from our NYC extravaganza. Now if I could only take a vacation from my vacation.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.07.23 | Cast of Horribles | Goo, Sleep, Suffering

The continuation of nothingness

Sorry but I’m going to do it again. You don’t have to read it. You shouldn’t, actually. I’m posting it because Julie likes to read it to see if she’s in my thoughts. She is just not on today’s paper. Sorry!

Day two started late but at least it started. It’s always important for there to be a second day. It’s so easy to skip out before you truly start. If you do nothing will happen. It’s a law of nature.

I leave the bathroom at the wrong time after a short morning of bicycling around my route looking for troublemakers. Troublemakers on bicycles, that is. “They’re dispatching you to a call,” my partner says as he waves to me from the line for the barista. I sigh audibly. I was readying to settle down to a fifteen minute coffee break with the three other officers. I wanted quiet time before the heat set in. They wave in mock regret as I walk past them.

I whisper into my radio and find out it is another loose soul. It’s the third that morning. I write down the address in my small book and head out. The barista waves when she sees me leave without ordering. I untie my bicycle and pedal down the road. I hear more details in my radio: it’s an old one, three hundred years, last seen a few blocks from the coffeehouse. It was scaring a local resident. The old souls are always the worst.

Okay, push through it. I need many more words and they’re not coming as I expected. I’m generally okay with that. I have a big mug of coffee and many hours of loneliness. I’m not rushing anywhere. I wish things had worked out better this morning but they don’t always.

Triangles and squares, ready your rifles. It’s time to take down those geometric traitors.

Throw ideas on the page and let them seep. Things are not happening again. I’m not surprised. I just have to worry it over and see where it goes.

The explosion shook the house. The rats made merry with their feet.

They were so happy for not suffering. Not that suffering ever made anyone a bad person. It’s only through suffering that you can pretend to be a good person. Such bad truths I fail to share.

I ride the wave. I am the wave. I am a failure in everything.

Short sweet paragraphs with little in the way of sweetness. He wore his shirt with the collar pulled upward to protect his neck from the swords that swung near him.

There’s nothing here. These are useless words in a useless happenstance. I should go home. I should give up and remember that there’s nothing here, nothing worth sharing. Nothing I want to bother with.

Is there anything worse than what I didn’t see?

They’re so old. They’re so young. They’re so jumped over the candlestick.

Still more words to write. I sit on the couch and push buttons on my console and wonder what it is I will write to fill in the void. A documentary will help move this along.

There was once a T-shaped avenue. There were many T-shaped avenues, but this was my avenue. I could know about it the same way as not know about it. This is turning out to be about nothingness.

They started talking and I walked away. I didn’t want to hear. To hear their conversation left a lump in my stomach. I knew it was the anxiety talking, and yet it started to yell and I couldn’t stop the yelling. They might as well be talking about the moon or my most private memories. It was the same horror at hearing them talk. I walked away until I couldn’t hear them anymore, and when they were silent I sat down and could relax.

Their conversation continued in the next room but I pretended not to hear the murmurs.

I was in my own world. I was the center of my own storm. I was thinking there might be something else out there, something that called to me but I didn’t hear it. I never did hear such things, but I pretended that they were close.

These are the words I was talking about before. These are the useless words that don’t say anything but that I throw to the page in the hopes of warming up to real words. I’ll get sick of these consternations. It always happens that way. And when I do I’ll have nothing left to write but story.

We’re arguing over the placement of a piano. It’s not an argument but a discussion. Feng shui is referred to. Energy and blockages. I’m getting tired just putting the lines together to map out flows and understand ancient rules. There’s something to it. I’m just not sure what.

The phone rings again. If only I had my ladybug timer the barbequing would be easier. I’ll have to use the microwave again. For keeping time, that is. Microwaved food tends to taste a bit strange. Not sure if it’s the radiation or something that keeps it going.

I write in three-minute intervals between checking and flipping the steak cooking on barbeque. It’s a better word spelled out, even if it lacks the western twang.

There is nothing here worth posting but lots worth reading. I have to content myself that there was some plan, some worth. Then I need to move on and figure out what that worth is.

I’m reading crappy books. I wonder if reading crappy books and writing crappy words is related somehow. I wish I could get beyond this part, this warm up, this pushing words so I remember how to form words. It’s the monkeys again pounding away on their typewriters with gleeful looks. They’re enjoying themselves even if they don’t quite know what they’re doing. The microwave beeped. I have to flip the meat.

The meat is turned. It’s not browning as well as I hoped. I turned up the heat. Perhaps that’s the answer to most of life’s problems: more heat. It seems to be working for Seattle. With lots of heat people are less likely to do stupid things. Or is it the other way around? Spike Lee seemed to think it was the reverse. I try not to trust moviemakers or Knicks fans. There’s something rotten to root for losers. And yes I’m just bitter. I know how that comes across.

Halfway to nowhere with these words. I used to do this with the Marathon: I would get to this point and no something good was going to happen. So we’re using the same definitions, good was something that was finished for the day. There were only some days where good meant valuable.

The vegetables are being chopped and the dogs are barking. These aren’t our dogs so I don’t feel as guilty. It’s like babies crying but for dogs and without the growing up and out of it part. I guess I shouldn’t complain too loudly.

It’s all about the expense. Keep them away from the emergency room. Let them eat cake! In other words, if they die it’s not my fault. As long as I don’t have to pay anything. That’s how you fix the insurance business: have them pay for funerals so they wouldn’t be so quick to carry people over to their deathbeds. Is there anything more expensive than funerals these days?

My fingernails are getting long. It’s hard to type with long nails. There’s a reason to keep myself well groomed. I’ll get to it tomorrow morning before I head back to the grind.

I’m back after an adventure to the grocery store to exchange two propane tanks so we can eat dinner. Eventually.

I’m adding words for the sake of words. So be it.

I’m exhausted but still eight hundred words short. I should not bother with word counts. Tomorrow morning will be the real test. Can I get up early enough to make a go at this, or will this, like most of my projects, end up a useless pile of words. I have too many of them hanging around the house, clogging up the hallways and drains.

I’m not a visionary. I’m not anything that is anything. But that is neither here nor there.

The green eyed monster asked me what I was typing. I didn’t answer her. The green eyes gave her a way. I knew what she wanted and where she came from. I wondered at the source of such misery. All is not terrible in this world with such beautiful eyes.

I collapsed into the chair. The chair collapsed into me. It was overstuffed with goodness and grasped me tightly. I could sleep for hours in this chair and it knew it. It knew me better than I knew myself. But I didn’t think of such things. Now was not the time for thinking. Now was the time to find turns of phrases that I use repetitively. There are too many of those.

Make things happen. There are always time for things to happen.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.08.02 | Musing, Suffering, Writing

I thought it was in me

It isn't. It really isn't. With my Horrible output drastically decreasing, I may have to scale back postings to three times a week until I get back into my groove. Poor Tuesdays and Thursdays. They used to be so good to me.

My new Naginata is coming from Japan via Boston. I can't wait to get my grubby hands on it on Thursday. Watch out world!

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.08.19 | Cast of Horribles | Heart, Suffering

I was feeling blue

It's Monday again. Not sure I can take anymore Mondays.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.08.31 | Cast of Horribles | Pink, Suffering

They're coming for me

And I'm not sure what they're going to do to me. I like this Horrible. I like it's terribleness.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.09.18 | Cast of Horribles | Anxiety, Suffering

I thought I was better than that

It turned out I wasn't. I've been writing a bunch in my new medium, black imitation-Moleskine notebook. That means less writing for you Horrible followers. Reading through my scribbles, I can assure you that you're not missing much.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.09.30 | Cast of Horribles | Introspection, Suffering

We've hit an equilibrium

I have an idea for November! Now if only I could morph the idea into a story.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.10.05 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

"Oh, I'm going to tell on you!"

The hits just keep on coming! (With a bat, that is.)

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.10.09 | Cast of Horribles | Intrigue, Politics, Purple Boss, Suffering, Work

There are things they don't teach me

The Horribles are back! Well, for one day at least. We'll return to our normal posting schedule next Wednesday. We're off to NYC on Wednesday for a long weekend of Turkey eating and family visiting.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.11.23 | Cast of Horribles | Crowds, Suffering

I don't know why I thought I could do it

A fitting Friday Horrible. This was the last in the line of Betrothed, my failed attempt at a video game. As you can see it ended in abject failure. I'm used to it.

For those tracking the Seattle weather at home, it will get into the high forties next week. It looks like we won't get any snow. I did doodle a couple of snow Horribles just in case.

Don't forget, tonight is part deux of Julie's choral concert.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.12.11 | Cast of Horribles | Failure, Suffering

I know all about me

. . . and it's not good. Not good at all.

It's New Year's Eve tonight. You all know what that means!

This vacation is getting a bit long in the tooth. We're ready to get back to our regularly scheduled routine. It feels like more than a month since we picked up our Naginatas or had a full day's worth of work to finish or played video games with Steven (not that I haven't been keeping myself occupied with Modern Warfare 2).

I suspect few of you are interested in knowing how my year went. I don't blame you. Instead I'll provide you statistics for my posting:

30 text posts (22 of which were for the Marathon)
25 photo albums
1,715 photos in the albums (okay, so we're not good at culling photos)
210 Horribles doodled this year
210 Horribles posted this year (not sure how that worked out so perfectly)
75 Horribles left unposted in my queue
1 story written (if we're generous and count my Marathon offering as a story)

What do we learn from these statistics? I spend lots of time doodling, and not enough time writing. But I already knew that.

Mercer Island, WA | 2009.12.31 | Cast of Horribles | Black and White, Introspection, Suffering

I always thought I had . . . something important in me

I was wrong. Always wrong.

It's a slightly sunny and mild day today. Yes, I'm falling back on the weather since I have nothing else to talk about. I have the Horribles to post every day now. I wish I had the words to match the doodles.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.01.06 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Too hot to doodle

Back in July this was true. Today, not so much. Although it has been very dry because of the forced air in the house. We went out and bought a fancy humidifier last night after Julie woke up with a bloody nose from the dryness. The white noise is very relaxing. It still felt dry even though it said it was close to 48% humidity.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.01 | Cast of Horribles | Doodling, Heat, Hot, Suffering

They want me to change

It was a fun-filled shopping weekend. It's foggy over here, but as soon as it clears, it'll be sunny and hopefully warm.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.08 | Cast of Horribles | Flag, Suffering, Work

The emperor has no clothes

We're stuck in the middle of a group of suffering Horribles. (Luckily, my actual suffering took place last summer.)

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.09 | Cast of Horribles | Self-reflection, Suffering

There are worse things in the world

Another rainy day. It certainly beats the snow.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.11 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

"You're a psycho"

Aren't we all. Aren't we all.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.12 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Truth

There is no perfect world

But this one is close, at least today: a foggy morning gave way to sun and blue skies, with temperatures heading again into the mid-50s.

We downloaded all of our camera's photographs this weekend. We're a bit heavy on the Naginata pictures. We'll hopefully have lots of other things to photograph this year to fill our 2010 photo albums.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.15 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Injustice is a dish best served cold

Another morning, another blue sky. This time sans fog. My back feels straighter today. At least it did before I slouches into my office chair. So much for good posture.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.16 | Cast of Horribles | Anger, Suffering

What haven't you told me

Nothing to say today. I'm exhausted from not enough sleep and too much Naginata yesterday.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.17 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I have to stop living in my small head

It's Friday (yeah, I know, this shouldn't count as a post).

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.02.19 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

"I've been asked to read this statement: I'm a big fat idiot"

Back to my normally scheduled queue.

As I left work yesterday, the warm rain smelled of Spring. I want to thank Winter this year. She has been quite mild.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.03.03 | Cast of Horribles | Purple Boss, Suffering, Work

There's something about me

It's cold in Seattle. Not sure what happened but people yesterday claimed to have seen snow. In March. Today is sunny but still cold. I guess Spring will have to wait a few more days.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.03.09 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I hate sleep headaches

I know I'm jinxing myself by posting this one. I haven't had a headache in a couple of weeks thanks to the consistent cold and rainy weather. It looks to be a relatively sunny and warm day today. Not so much for later in the week. Let's hope the changing weather doesn't reek havoc on my delicate constitution again.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.06.22 | Cast of Horribles | Sleep, Suffering, Sword

Stop looking at me

I had hoped to take the day off and spend time with my visiting mother. Work just doesn't always work that way.

Remember when I said Seattle had finally made it to summer? Yeah, it rained again. So surprising!

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.06.25 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Don't forget about me

The purchase went through yesterday. I bought a station wagon, or a "sportwagon," as they call it in an attempt to leave me with some of my masculinity. I receive the car in about a week.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.01 | Cast of Horribles | Forgotten, Pregnancy, Suffering

I just need to rest for a moment

The headache returns. Again. Joy.

At least it's Friday. A warm, yucky Friday, but a Friday nonetheless. This weekend should be better weather-wise.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.09 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering, Walls

You can't always tell me everything

. . . or the corollary: I don't always want to know.

Another cool overcast day. The weather is really something this summer.

Yes, I keep talking about the weather because it's the same ol', same ol' here. We're waiting for the autumn with trepidation, preparing for the big change. Otherwise life is good and quiet and predictable. Except for the weather.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.13 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Why don't you like me anymore?

My new car arrived on Saturday. It's fancier than expected. It's been a while since I looked forward to driving anywhere.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.19 | Cast of Horribles | Depressed, Suffering

They can't know me

My brain feels so empty today.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.22 | Cast of Horribles | Loneliness, Suffering

"We won't judge you"

I want my money back. This weekend was too short.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.26 | Cast of Horribles | Robot, Suffering

So anxious

Sleepless night yesterday. Maybe it was the anxiety.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.07.27 | Cast of Horribles | Anxiety, Suffering

I'm just not good at this

I hate Friday headaches.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.08.06 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Stop telling me I'm blue

. . . I tell myself that quite enough.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.08.10 | Cast of Horribles | Blue, Suffering

Teh internets is not your friend

The gloomy weather seems to have passed. Bring on the heat wave!

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.08.11 | Cast of Horribles | Friend, Internets, Suffering

I don't know what I owe you

. . . but if I did, I'm not sure I would pay.

Think happy thoughts. Think happy thoughts.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.08.24 | Cast of Horribles | Shiny, Suffering

It can't be that bad

New weather! Something to write about! Awesomeness. Hmm...should I really be excited that it's cold and cloudy and about to rain?

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.08.26 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

The sane ones in a maelstrom of discontent

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.09.03 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

You just have to let it go sometimes

The countdown continues. The only thing missing is a real end date. It's weird to countdown to something when you don't know when that something will actually occur. I guess that makes it more like a waitingdown than a countdown.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.09.06 | Cast of Horribles | Brick Wall, Clouds, Suffering, Wall

It's all coming back to me now

Still under the weather. The first cold of the season doesn't want to go away. Hopefully it'll be gone soon.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.09.20 | Cast of Horribles | Border, Suffering

I'm just not good at anything

Busy morning. I'll almost all better. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be back to normal tomorrow. Julie is still Julie+.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.09.21 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I keep hoping I can do better than I do

Another busy day and night. Dalia certainly has lungs that she's not afraid to use.

The Horribles enter a week or so of unhappiness (which shouldn't be too surprising since I did name them the Cast of Horribles). I doodled this back in April, so it is not a reflection over my current blissful feelings. I'll hopefully sprinkled in more Dalia-inspired Horribles this week.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.09.28 | Cast of Horribles | Clouds, Suffering

It's not working anymore

Week one of my vacation draws to a close. I hope to have actual words written this weekend. Words about stuff. Stay tuned.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.01 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

Make it stop spinning

Contiguous sleep is highly underrated.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.05 | Cast of Horribles | Spiral, Suffering

It's crawling all over me

Another cool, beautiful day.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.12 | Cast of Horribles | Spiders, Suffering

I didn't want you to see me like this

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.14 | Cast of Horribles | Anxiety, Scribbles, Suffering

you have to stop

Friday, Friday, Friday. Such a beautiful word.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.15 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

I shouldn't have gone there

These days that cave looks awfully dark and comfortable. I'm sure I could catch a few hours of sleep in there.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.18 | Cast of Horribles | Cave, Suffering, The Dark Place

Make it stop already

Tough night again last night. Things are looking better after a nap and a smoothie.

Mercer Island, WA | 2010.10.20 | Cast of Horribles | Suffering

So much time so little output

This should really be titled "so little time so little output." I haven't doodled in too many weeks. Not to mention, I haven't even thought of writing either (sorry Chuck). I do hope to do both one of these days.